I’m a born and bred goody two shoes; a law abiding citizen; teachers pet; modest mouse.
I like things to be as they ‘should be’. My husband says I’m the safest person he knows (which I’m realising more recently could actually just mean I’m the most boring person he knows, but I’m going to roll with ‘safe’ because that makes me feel better). I like my calendar to be scheduled properly, task lists to be written; I like to know that everything will be okay.
Whilst I can light heartedly say I ‘like’ the above things, the reality is that for a long time these things created a huge amount of pressure in my life. I carried pressure to be good at everything, to be well behaved always, to say the right things and do the right things, to be perfect…
It seems like as women we’ve been feeling the pressure since ‘the incident’ with Eve in the Garden of Eden. Since then we’ve been internally processing, measuring, calculating, carrying, caring about everything to the point where we feel we might explode.
...the heavy load we’ve been carrying of responsibility
…the expectations we place on ourselves as mums
…the need to succeed in our careers
…the longing to have a picture perfect home
…the time we need to invest into relationships
…the comparison to those instagram bodies and families
…the image in our heads of what we want life to look like next to the reality of what we see
…the aching deep within for a miracle
You were never meant to carry the weight of all this.
It’s time to stop.
My favourite verse over the past five years has been Proverbs 3:5 & 6 which says: “Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; He’s the one who will keep you on track.”
This verse is a daily reminder to me that as I relinquish control and hand the reigns over to God, the pressure’s off! If He’s in control, I don’t need to be - what a relief!
As I spend more time in the Word of God I find out more about who God is and the pressure is off again. God gives us these names for Himself:
Jehovah Jireh (The Lord my provider)
Jehovah Rapha (The Lord my healer)
Jehovah Honesu (The Lord my maker)
Jehovah Shalom (The Lord my peace)
The incredible thing about these names is that it gives some context to the God that I’m trusting; it strengthens that trust because now He’s no longer God up in the sky, but He impacts my every day life:
So he’s provider? Sweet, pressure’s off, I don’t need to sort all this out myself.
He’s my healer? Pressure’s off, I can stand in faith for a miracle.
He’s my maker? Pressure’s off, I’m pretty fabulous, and He cares about me personally.
He’s my peace? Pressure’s off, I can give Him all my worries/anxieties and He’ll give me peace in return (sweet deal to be honest).
Like I said earlier, I like to know everything will be okay. The truth is, as I trust God, I’m more confident than ever that it will be.
Now that the pressure’s off I find myself walking more confidently, holding my head a little higher, and am able to give my best to the people surrounding me. Now that the pressure's off I can see clearer, think straight and walk in an incredible peace. Now that the pressure's off, not only does the future look good, but today does as well.
So stop holding onto all that stuff by yourself - the pressure’s off - the path forward is incredible xx